Round 10: Me reflecting on how not to die... and other stuff
Mar 7, 2019 16:14:55 GMT
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Post by Charity on Mar 7, 2019 16:14:55 GMT
I woke up this morning feeling devastated at the fact that Taylor is gone. I tried everything I could yesterday to try and emphasize that the Myvatin 3 is a serious threat (Which was proven to be true with MARK playing a fucking idol on EMILY), but Stephanie/Brian/Griffin (or original Kalmar) just weren't willing to do that. At that point, I just had to tell them not to let it be me... because I want to be in this game more than I want to fall on the sword for anyone. So yeah.
The fact that I had 3 people (original Kalmar) willing to actively make sure the vote was not me speaks volumes for the game I'm trying to play. I'd love nothing more than to be in a more powerful position, but with the way these people are playing I know that's not going to be a possibility every round. All I have to fall back on are these relationships. I know original Myvatin saw me as the biggest threat to their game, but 3 people pushing for something else to happen because I presented myself as crucial to their game went a long way.
In terms of original Kalmar, I think it's going to be important for me to continue and present myself as a free agent whose ONLY option is to side with them. Siding with Myvatin 3 gives anyone who does it 4th at best... so who's gonna be that stupid?? I at least see cracks within every other dynamic in the game, but not with those 3. I do plan on keeping an open dialogue with them, but I really don't think it's going to get me anywhere. In terms of Andrew... we voted together last round so that gives me some credibility. Kaylee basically asked me to throw Taylor/Andrew under the bus to save myself, and I basically told her to fuck off so I hope he appreciates that as well?
Overall, I just need to accept the fact that I have to adapt to what's happening in this game. I might not have the power right now, but if I can weasel my way into a survival position, I might be able to gain power in the future. As much as I love Taylor, I hope her leaving makes me look less powerful. I'm gonna try my best to make smart decisions but I don't plan on getting my hopes up. We'll see.
Mood:
The fact that I had 3 people (original Kalmar) willing to actively make sure the vote was not me speaks volumes for the game I'm trying to play. I'd love nothing more than to be in a more powerful position, but with the way these people are playing I know that's not going to be a possibility every round. All I have to fall back on are these relationships. I know original Myvatin saw me as the biggest threat to their game, but 3 people pushing for something else to happen because I presented myself as crucial to their game went a long way.
In terms of original Kalmar, I think it's going to be important for me to continue and present myself as a free agent whose ONLY option is to side with them. Siding with Myvatin 3 gives anyone who does it 4th at best... so who's gonna be that stupid?? I at least see cracks within every other dynamic in the game, but not with those 3. I do plan on keeping an open dialogue with them, but I really don't think it's going to get me anywhere. In terms of Andrew... we voted together last round so that gives me some credibility. Kaylee basically asked me to throw Taylor/Andrew under the bus to save myself, and I basically told her to fuck off so I hope he appreciates that as well?
Overall, I just need to accept the fact that I have to adapt to what's happening in this game. I might not have the power right now, but if I can weasel my way into a survival position, I might be able to gain power in the future. As much as I love Taylor, I hope her leaving makes me look less powerful. I'm gonna try my best to make smart decisions but I don't plan on getting my hopes up. We'll see.
Mood:
"Oh I want to call" and "Don't worry about the vote" are weird things to hear when for the past 3 days I've been told "I can't promise you anything" and "you're a threat..." what the fuck!? IM SHOOK WHAT HAS MY GAME BECOME?!?! THEYRE SO FAKE LIKE WHY AM I SUDDENLY IMPORTANT IM SCREAMING