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Post by Stephanie on Mar 12, 2019 12:59:21 GMT
This round is the most scared I have been for my own safety. I could see Mark coming for me, and if Charity gets any inclination I could flip, I may be in trouble.
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Post by Stephanie on Mar 13, 2019 12:46:57 GMT
Final 5... yes, I realize this is a Night round, I mis spoke in my video.
PS. This is from last night it just took forever to upload.
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Post by Stephanie on Mar 14, 2019 12:52:01 GMT
This round is complicated. I am really trying to think through things. So far, and I know it is early, I am wanting to move forward with Kaylee and Mark. Here is some of how my brain is working though and what I know about tribe dynamics. www.flickr.com/photos/145811861@N03/shares/7qWC7u(see 3 photos)
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Post by Nick on Mar 15, 2019 1:35:08 GMT
All of your notes and handwriting are so aesthetically pleasing, can I hire you to take notes for me in future ORGs?
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Post by Stephanie on Mar 15, 2019 12:34:28 GMT
Final 5 after immunity.
I have really been trying to figure out what is best for me here. It is very hard to know what people will value and what they will dismiss on the jury in order to decide. With that said though, I am not the only one left in the game who is trying to figure these things out.
I believe that both Andrew and Griffin want me at the end with them and do not want Kaylee or Mark there due to their relationships on the jury. Griffin re-iterated F2 and Andrew has been saying F3. Griffin is nervous if I am telling him the truth, and Andrew is weary of my connections to Kaylee/Mark.
Kaylee has told me she wants F2 with me. However, I have heard she is worried about my social connections on the jury.
Mark and I had a really good chat two nights ago. He proposed F3 with Kaylee, but it sounds like he would prefer to be F2 with her.
Now, after the challenge (which I did not win), everyone told everyone else they did not win. Kaylee was very involved in trying to figure out where immunity was and was questioning everyone. She started assuming that Griffin had the immunity and was lying to her. Due to the fact that Griffin "had immunity" in Kaylee's eyes, she started saying Mark was the biggest threat and we had to take him out here. While on call with Kaylee though, Andrew messaged me to call him. I got off call with Kaylee to call Andrew.
Andrew told me he has immunity, but wants me to vote for him with Kaylee and Mark so that his sole vote decides who goes. Now, I feel I have to go along with his plan because if I do not, I piss off Griffin by voting him out or not including him, and I piss off Andrew who has really been proving himself at the end here. I can also maintain face (at least for the short term) with Kaylee and Mark.
The fallout however, when Kaylee and Mark inevitably find out I knew where immunity was could be bad for my game. I really do not know what Mark would do without Kaylee in the game, especially once he knows I knew about what is happening.
The only options I see here are to, one, go to Kaylee/Mark saying I know where immunity is and vote out Griffin. I think this increases my odds to make F3 but decreases my odds to win. Or two, tell only Mark but explain to him why it needs to happen.
Not sure exactly what will happen, but I do think Kaylee unfortunately will leave today. I love the girl so much though.
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Post by Stephanie on Mar 15, 2019 21:15:11 GMT
I know it is final 5 and absolutely anything (except Andrew because of his immunity) could happen, but I am really nervous. I am being told that Kaylee and Mark want to vote me out due to social connections.
Andrew is the one saying this to me, and I do believe Griffin wants me here, but I could be in trouble.
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Post by Stephanie on Mar 16, 2019 1:13:04 GMT
I survived tribal!!! Now it is final 4
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Post by Stephanie on Mar 16, 2019 19:00:28 GMT
I have been reflecting a lot on this game over the last 18 hours since tribal council.
Throughout the game, I would say I was talking to people anywhere from 6-10 hours/ day (during the week), and more on weekends. This was the case even in the final 5 round. This past week alone, I did not go to bed before 1am and was up before 6am talking to people before work. The amount of time I put into social connections in this game is truly what I believe got me here. I did not always know the strategic moves to make, or did not always trust my head over my heart, but for the most part I knew how to make people feel good with me.
With it now being final 4, I feel like that advantage I had, and in a sense that strategy, is not going to work anymore. In the past, even when I lied or left people out of votes I was able to convince them that I still wanted them here even if I did not want their ally here.
This is not working with Kaylee here in this round and I do not expect it to. Kaylee is VERY VERY upset with me. I believe this is both on a personal and game level. She is trying to explain/ threaten that no matter what I do in this round I cannot win. She is saying that her, Mark, Emily, Noah, and Doug will all vote for Griffin over me if I do not take her, and that if her and I end up final 3 together she gets the Myvatn votes. Her saying these things on a strategic level shakes me up a little bit, but more I just want to be her friend again. If she wins immunity here and cuts me, she likely has my vote. But, if she continues to make me feel like a bad person here for making strategic decisions, then I do not know what I will do. At this time, Kaylee and I really are not speaking to one another. I apologized for making her feel sketched out about me last round, for keeping the fact I knew Andrew had immunity secret, and for lying about my vote. I told her though that I could not apologize for voting out Mark, especially when I found out the two of them were targeting me. She never once apologized for coming for me last round, yet I am taking it as a game move and she is mad. At this point, I told her that I am happy to talk to her if/when she is ready, and that I truly love and care about her as a person and want to be friends post game.
We are still a long ways away from final 4 tribal council but I believe that Andrew and Griffin want me in the end with them over Kaylee. However, these two people are ones that even though I have strategically worked with them, they do not give me the social stability and trust that I have received from other players in this game, and they appear to not put in as many hours forming social bonds. Therefor, with Kaylee not talking to me, and Andrew and Griffin doing whatever they do in their day-to-day lives, today is SOOOOOO quiet. I think Katie has talked to me more than anyone else even in this game (and that was a minute of messages).
Since, no one is talking I am instead spending my time doing two things. One, trying to estimate how the jury feels and possible iterations of how they may vote. Two, practicing logic puzzles and jigsaw puzzles online. The slide puzzle is the hardest for me, but I am getting a 3x3 done in just over a minute. Anything harder than that though I am really struggling. I can do most Sudoku puzzles quickly, jigsaw puzzles, and 3D spacial puzzles. Hopefully that whatever puzzles or combinations of puzzles will be ones I am okay at. At this point, my biggest fear is Kaylee winning the competition though because she does not want me in the end. If I cannot socially do much more in this game, then I need to do what I can to ensure my safety and give me the best chance of winning the game.
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Post by Stephanie on Mar 17, 2019 0:12:33 GMT
We are friends again!
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Post by Stephanie on Mar 17, 2019 22:22:24 GMT
I have talked to everyone left in the game today, and from my perspective most of us are most fearful of different people.
I believe Andrew is most fearful of Kaylee and I. I believe Griffin is most fearful of Kaylee. I believe Kaylee is pitching Griffin's name most (me second), and I am most fearful of Andrew, then Kaylee.
Kaylee seems overly obsessed with getting out Griffin, and I am not at all seeing her logic. Anytime I hint to her I would be more scared of Andrew she dismisses it. This could just be different reads on things, or it could be her working with Andrew.
The reason that I am most worried about Andrew being in this game is he has won 2 competitions and made some big moves/ plans happen. Andrew is the reason the Charity vote went to a tie, Andrew orchestrated the Kaylee/Mark vs. me in the Mark vote round, and he is making Kaylee and I want to trust him now. He also did not betray/ vote out the people he worked with.
Kaylee scares me in her own way, but it is all for social reasons.
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Post by Stephanie on Mar 18, 2019 4:15:22 GMT
The F4 challenge is still about 20 hours away and honestly I just want to know who wins it. The more and more we wait for this challenge the more I am getting myself into a tenuous position and could say something wrong to someone.
Over the past two days I was able to get myself back into Kaylee's good graces. At least it appears that way. We are definitely good on a friendship level, but the game is in such a tough position now that it is hard to know if we are good on a game level or not. To me, she is VERY strongly targeting Griffin, then saying she is a bit apprehensive about Andrew. Andrew has told me she is strongly targeting Griffin to him as well, but saying my name a bit too. I do not blame her though, and can see her game here. The reason I am in a tenuous position though is that I have led Kaylee to believe that I would be open to forcing a tie to keep her in this game. I am mainly doing this, so if push comes to shove and she wins immunity then she gives me the chance too if the boys target me. It also though is not a complete lie. I am open to it in the case where I have immunity and it is her vs. Andrew. She believes I would do it if it were her vs. Griffin, but I have not quite figured out what the benefit there would be.
At this point, and lots could still theoretically change, I believe my best chance to win this game is against Kaylee and Griffin. I have made moves that both of them were left out of. If I can also manage to get Andrew out here, I think I could really make a case of why I should win. However, I believe the second best option is for me to be final 3 with Griffin and Andrew. I think Andrew has more to say to undermine some of the strategic moves I have made though, and this is why I am hesitant to go to the end with him.
I know that the general consensus of people in the game is that Kaylee has more automatic jury votes, but I have to hope people are willing to listen to a speech, and I have more to say about my game if Andrew is not there.
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Post by Stephanie on Mar 19, 2019 0:26:16 GMT
The challenge is coming up really soon and I am very nervous. I want to win and secure my spot in Final 3 SOOOO badly, but I also do not want to put too much pressure on myself that I just panic.
I believe we get 30 mins after the challenge to strategize.
If I win the challenge, I need to take that time to convince Griffin to vote out Andrew and I can push HARD for it. If he does not agree I will vote to keep Kaylee no matter what in the case that I have immunity.
If Kaylee or Griffin wins immunity, I think I can push for Andrew to go, but have to be more tactful.
If Andrew wins immunity, I need to spend my time grovelling and apologizing to Kaylee. I truly believe this happening creates the WORST scenario for me to win the game.
I want to get to the end, but I also REALLY want to win.
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Post by Stephanie on Mar 19, 2019 5:42:29 GMT
I made it. I survived the final eviction vote of the game and have a chance in the final 3 to plea my case to the jury. With that said, I betrayed Kaylee and feel really, really awful. I cannot even celebrate making it here when I know that someone I care deeply about did not make it when I knew how much they wanted it and fought for it. Kaylee fought harder than anyone this past round. She spent hours upon hours talking with me about voting out Griffin and selling herself to me, and I know she also made pitches to Andrew here.
The fact that this game is now essentially over (all up to the jury), is truly insane. I have gained so much from this experience. Mostly friendships, but also insight into who I am in a game like this.
The game ends tomorrow night, so tonight and tomorrow my job is to write down and practice articulating my game. I need to try and foresee the types of questions they will ask, and insert the best parts of my game into a speech.
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Post by Stephanie on Mar 19, 2019 22:44:43 GMT
Final tribal council is in less than 2.5 hours now. I am SO nervous, but feeling ready. I have written out my speech, practiced it, and taken notes on different parts of my game, so I can speak to them if questions are asked.
I honestly believe it comes down to Andrew and I in this vote, but if Griffin wins it will be the first vote in a long time that I am surprised by.
I know that my ONLY chance to win this game is if people are not bitter. If they are, I have already lost and no matter what I say will not change it. I told Kaylee to vote Andrew if she cannot get over the pain I caused her to vote me, and I legitimately want that. I believe Andrew is very deserving which is why I did not want him in the game.
In my heart, I feel like I have put more passion, time and attention into this game than either of them, but I know passion alone cannot win me this game. I need to own my game, and pray it is enough.
No matter what happens though, I hope I can repair friendships after this game.
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